Today Is Like The Darkest Day Of My Life

I dropped my ipod this morning.
It fell flat onto the ground.
It continued to play.
But when I went to the next song it skipped to the next song and the next and the next.
FF
Then it started to click.
Then my heart started to hurt.

And now it lays next to me.
Open, cold and unresponsive.
I had never mistreated you, ever.
And now I scream your name only to hear your faint repetitive click and whir.

I want to hide under my desk and cry.
Rock back and forth maybe.
Suck my thumb.


Oh god the last 5 years of collected tunes.
Gone.
My only salvation from this weird life.
Gone.

Nothing makes sense to me right now.


Madness may cometh at my door.


I am feeling scared and lost.